So heres my life...

Discussion in 'Off Topic Chat' started by MDowdey, Jan 5, 2004.

  1. MDowdey

    MDowdey Guest

    well, i have no one to talk to here at home so here goes...


    Im stuck. Im floundering in outerspace waiting for something or someone to save me. Have you ever felt like the big answer was right around the door, but still just out of reach. I want to make an impact on someone or something. Its like the matrix. I feel like elevating myself to a higher plane of thought or something, its hard to explain.

    so my question is, "where do we go from here", and most importantly, "how will this all end?"

    discuss, and be gentlle,. please.

    md
     
  2. carlita

    carlita TPF Noob!

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    will is always really good at this stuff. i, however, am not. :-? :-(
     
  3. MDowdey

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    who is will, and how much does he charge?



    :)


    md
     
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    Is that the Will they always fire at?

    All joking aside, you probably already know the answer to your question.
    It may be trite but be honest with yourself, think it through very carefully for at least a week then go for it!

    Best of luck old chap!
     
  5. Dew

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    thats funny u should mention that, my best buddy just arrived in town today ... we were engaged in a deep conversation about a very political topic (i prefer not to mention it :lol: ) ... but i remember my quote to her was, "its like we're in the matrix and everyone else is clueless... sleepers." :D

    but i know what you mean .. the hubby and i bounce off each other .. he likes our "box" ... but i feel "boxed in" :?


    the "box" is your daily grind and life around you ... the repetitive cycle of your inner circle
     
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    I'm in a pondering mood these days so I know what you mean. I think it's something about the new year and making new plans that makes us think about where we are in our lives and what we are doing.

    Just today I had a conversation with a friend about our jobs. We are both lower management (supervisors not really going anywhere). Neither one of us wants to play office politics so we're sort of spinning our wheels. In all of the years I've worked and supported myself (and still am) I never really figured out what I really wanted to do.

    I'm content (not overjoyed, but content) with my work life but want something more in my personal life. MD, I know I haven't answered your questions; just know you aren't alone in your thoughts.
     
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    i do believe that i may be the aforementioned 'Will'. if not, then read not a 11010001 beyond this.


    an unsettling feeling; i know. an unsettling feeling as most do/will know. an unsettling feeling that has the floral scent of emergence. the landscape in dreams. the tactile of the wanted.

    it's you. it's you seeking an outlet. is it photography? try it. is it working for a non-profit organization? try it. is it a new pair of shoes? try it.

    so i haven't directly answered your query , but yet i have. no one will save you, my friend. not because folks don't want to do so, but because they are busy wondering the same......

    so.

    i go back to an aforementioned reference: find YOURSELF, then you will find people that won't save you, but will support you. a fine line there; i know. it's a balancing act. support is infinitely more valuable than any type of salvation (in the general definition).

    explore yourself.

    don't tell me you have.

    explore yourself.

    you then will invariably find folks that may say.... :

    - i don't understand you
    - i don't totally agree with you
    - i do accept you
    - i love you for the person that you've become



    the big answer will forever be out of reach. the purpose is to get as close to it as possible....

    there are few 'bangs' in life that are everlasting.

    revel in the small joys.


    making an impact requires that you know yourself fairly well. think about it - how can you make a positive impact if you yet do not know how you can do it?

    introspection

    believe this: you are worthless to anyone unless you are of defined worth to yourself.
     
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    well said Will .. very inspiring :D


    we talk about that quite often (perhaps to much time on our hands) .. but it usually goes something like this ....

    "hun.. we wait all of our lives to be where we are now ... we're in our 30's, happily married, (havent started a family yet, but that's something else) you have your own business ... what else? ... is this it? ... is that all to it? .... where do we go from here? ... is this what life's all about? .... <ranting>the older a person gets, the tighter their circle becomes ... its like, "they" retreat from life, from living ... they get settled into their little box... people go to work, come home .. kiss their spouse have dinner (fill in the blanks) ... go to sleep and get up the next day to start all over again ... this is what we look forward to ... our box-filled lives"</end rant>

    now, usually its me that starts analizing everything :lol: ... most of the things i say are very cut and dry (for dramatic effect :eek: ) .. but in "real-life" ... i'm waiting to see what life is all about ... i hope there's more too it :roll: ... but i definatly feel ya .... i cant wait to have kids so we can live vicariously through their everychanging lives :lol: ... then they grow up to start their own box :no smile:

    so to break the cycle .. i told the hubby lets sell everything we own, travel across country and live in a van :D ... he doesnt think its a good idea :? .. "we need to be reponsible" he says :lmao:
     
  9. carlita

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    you are correct, my good man. :sillysmi:
     
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    establish short-term and long-term goals. It works like this: In two weeks I'm going to do/buy/achieve whatever... In 12 months I want to do/buy/achieve...
    It can be simple things that satisfy you.
    Be realistic with your goals - don't over-estimate yourself and satisfaction is guaranteed.
     
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    Sorry MD i don't have the answers you're looking for but i'm sure you'll figure something out soon. Your answer may come from a very unlikely source without you actually looking for it. Think positive and positive things will happen.
    Good luck.
     
  12. MDowdey

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    I just wanted to say thanks to everyone that responded so far, im learning alot about myself as I go through this journey of self discovery. my main "thing" is that im learning some inevitable things about life and other people:

    1)Everyone has their own agenda. if my plan doesnt fit their agenda....its a done deal.

    2)Im not special, unique, a "one of a kind". Im the same as everyone else. LOST. Lost until the 11th percent of their brain kicks in and they grown anothe pair of chromosomes and realize that we were meant for something higher than this.

    3)im lonely. I have no one to share my dreams, passions, life, desires, lust with. This only enables me to go further into my hole.

    Im trying to be so positive, but I do realize im searching for something. I need goals, aspirations, and desires. I believe the photography and the art is the way, i just need to explore it more. throw my whole body into it.

    this has been a great discussion. i love all yall mofo's.

    md
     

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