Went to jail

DarkShadow · Jul 21, 2014

The first thing I did is stop hanging at the bar that was owned and operated by the CT Hells Angles bad ,bad, bad place. Liquor, Nose candy, and whores and pretty much anything you wanted including a whip ass if you said the wrong thing to some one. Then lost the so called friends I use to drink and have cocaine parties with.That was pretty much daily but new years was like eight ball heaven and It looked like a snow storm pretty much all the time. Most of the people I partied with are dead from alcohol related, drugs or suicide. Found one of my friends dead hanging in his garage and the hole time just kept thinking his poor mom and the lives destroyed. Alcohol and cocaine went hand in hand for many of my friends and I and no one to blame but my self. Once I started making better choices in my life things just started falling in place.Better jobs, better friends, better love life and so forth. I am not always happy and have stress like every once else and I have emphysema ( COPD) from smoking but nothing compares to where I was from the age of seventeen up until 28 years old and the slow death of drinking and drugging.

IzzieK · Jul 21, 2014

I do not drink nor pretend to know much about alcohol apart from taking pictures of them and making up stories about them (e.g., my school project for submission this coming Thursday) but I was married to an alcoholic at the time I was too young to know one from a bar of soap because I wasn't raised in that kind of environment...it lasted 18 years because we were taught to believe that we must stick with our husband for better or worst. It wasn't a pleasant life. The good that came out of it was that he was not a violent person once he is drunk, just asleep...so I practically raised our kids almost alone, go to work, go to sleep, etc. We never had a fight at all nor a harsh word against one another. 'Been in and out of one drying out centre after the other. Anyway, he died with half a lung, almost no kidneys and was in a pitiful state. He was too sick to even bothered. I still care about him. Every now and then I still missed him.

Please get help. It is not too late yet...

JacaRanda · Jul 21, 2014

Good luck to you Newtricks and glad you did not hurt anyone.

snerd · Jul 21, 2014

Newtricks said:
rexbobcat said:

An excuse implies justification. I don't think that's what going on here.

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You are right, I stepped on my di**, made a bad choice, and am paying the price for f***ing up. I am not looking for forgiveness, simply sharing the fact.

Forgiveness "always" comes with confession. We are a lucky people indeed. It's a very brave thing you have done, admitting and acknowledging it publicly. Good luck, and feel free to PM anytime.