RxForB3
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Not something I normally do on a web forum, but I know exactly what my friends would say, so no point venting to them.
So I dated a girl for two years. We met two weeks after I split from my wife. When we got together, I'm sure it was a rebound, so I overlooked several red flags. Things progressed quickly, and we were saying "I love you" within a month, I'd say. Shortly thereafter, she wanted to move in. Despite being 25, she lived with her parents and they didn't treat her well...even gave her a curfew of 9 if she had her kids with her, 11 without, with the threat of kicking her out if she didn't follow. However, I was smart enough to say no to her moving in.
She was VERY insecure. She was very paranoid and jealous. She checked my mail almost every day to keep an eye out for the Frederick's of Hollywood catalog I received every now and then because I'd ordered some things for her from then. Not because she wanted it, but because she wanted to throw it away so I wouldn't look at it. One day I was at work, a girl started choking, so I successfully performed the heimlich. Instead of being proud of me, she was angry because I had my arms around another girl. She even wanted to know what the other girl did to thank me. All my friends told me I should run away, but I didn't.
Several times she brought up marriage. She even asked me what I thought about a girl proposing to a guy. I told her no, primarily on the basis that I at the time planned to move back to Oklahoma where my son's mother lives. I feel that both parents should be involved if at all possible. Since she had two children with two fathers here in Washington, it made no sense to move two kids away from their dads just to move one kid closer to his mom. So I knew fairly quickly that I didn't think I planned on marrying her. And I told her this. I told her that if she was ever interested in another guy, that she should go for it, but that it would end our relationship probably even as friends.
A couple of times she thought she was interested in other guys. It never went well, mainly because they were certifiable losers and she would quickly realize she liked me much better and we'd go back to the way things were. She has generally VERY bad taste in guys (not sure what that says about me). All the while, I thought I was certain about one thing. She was head over heals in love with me. I wasn't sure how I felt about her. I was pretty sure I loved her, but the paranoia and moving parts were deterrents.
So a little over a month ago, she mentioned a guy she'd started talking to on Facebook. I'm 99.9% sure I know the exact day they first met, so I'm sure there was nothing more going on before, except maybe chatting online. So we went through the usual bit. I told her that was fine, but that we were done. She cried and told me she didn't want to lose me and over the next few days how much she missed me. But she would never decide whether she wanted to pursue things with him, or stay with me. This dragged on for a couple weeks till finally she went to the state fair with him after making excuses not to go with me. That was it for me. I ended things with some pretty choice words. Well...two weeks later she's engaged to the guy. Today I found out she's married to him as of Wednesday.
It shouldn't bother me. I know she wasn't the "one" for me, though I'm pretty sure I loved her. I know I can certainly find better some day and deserve better. It doesn't help that Yakima is fairly devoid of quality women my age, but there's someone better out there. Plus, I've been using this time to lose weight and take better care of myself. She didn't really like the thought of me doing anything that might make me more attractive to other women. Nor does this dismal weather help. I finally have 4 days off, but nothing to do because of the weather. I guess I'm bothered because it calls into question whether she really did love me, or if she was just desperate to get out of her parents' house and have someone rescue her. I mean, it was literally just a few days more than a month ago that she was still saying she loved me.
Bah...just frustrating. Ok...end vent.
So I dated a girl for two years. We met two weeks after I split from my wife. When we got together, I'm sure it was a rebound, so I overlooked several red flags. Things progressed quickly, and we were saying "I love you" within a month, I'd say. Shortly thereafter, she wanted to move in. Despite being 25, she lived with her parents and they didn't treat her well...even gave her a curfew of 9 if she had her kids with her, 11 without, with the threat of kicking her out if she didn't follow. However, I was smart enough to say no to her moving in.
She was VERY insecure. She was very paranoid and jealous. She checked my mail almost every day to keep an eye out for the Frederick's of Hollywood catalog I received every now and then because I'd ordered some things for her from then. Not because she wanted it, but because she wanted to throw it away so I wouldn't look at it. One day I was at work, a girl started choking, so I successfully performed the heimlich. Instead of being proud of me, she was angry because I had my arms around another girl. She even wanted to know what the other girl did to thank me. All my friends told me I should run away, but I didn't.
Several times she brought up marriage. She even asked me what I thought about a girl proposing to a guy. I told her no, primarily on the basis that I at the time planned to move back to Oklahoma where my son's mother lives. I feel that both parents should be involved if at all possible. Since she had two children with two fathers here in Washington, it made no sense to move two kids away from their dads just to move one kid closer to his mom. So I knew fairly quickly that I didn't think I planned on marrying her. And I told her this. I told her that if she was ever interested in another guy, that she should go for it, but that it would end our relationship probably even as friends.
A couple of times she thought she was interested in other guys. It never went well, mainly because they were certifiable losers and she would quickly realize she liked me much better and we'd go back to the way things were. She has generally VERY bad taste in guys (not sure what that says about me). All the while, I thought I was certain about one thing. She was head over heals in love with me. I wasn't sure how I felt about her. I was pretty sure I loved her, but the paranoia and moving parts were deterrents.
So a little over a month ago, she mentioned a guy she'd started talking to on Facebook. I'm 99.9% sure I know the exact day they first met, so I'm sure there was nothing more going on before, except maybe chatting online. So we went through the usual bit. I told her that was fine, but that we were done. She cried and told me she didn't want to lose me and over the next few days how much she missed me. But she would never decide whether she wanted to pursue things with him, or stay with me. This dragged on for a couple weeks till finally she went to the state fair with him after making excuses not to go with me. That was it for me. I ended things with some pretty choice words. Well...two weeks later she's engaged to the guy. Today I found out she's married to him as of Wednesday.
It shouldn't bother me. I know she wasn't the "one" for me, though I'm pretty sure I loved her. I know I can certainly find better some day and deserve better. It doesn't help that Yakima is fairly devoid of quality women my age, but there's someone better out there. Plus, I've been using this time to lose weight and take better care of myself. She didn't really like the thought of me doing anything that might make me more attractive to other women. Nor does this dismal weather help. I finally have 4 days off, but nothing to do because of the weather. I guess I'm bothered because it calls into question whether she really did love me, or if she was just desperate to get out of her parents' house and have someone rescue her. I mean, it was literally just a few days more than a month ago that she was still saying she loved me.
Bah...just frustrating. Ok...end vent.