Nope, I'm saying I like the feel/grip/hand hold of a full sized SLR. When I owned smaller cameras like my former D5000, I hated how it felt compared to a D90.
The D90 wasn't as nice as my former D300, etc.... I like the fat grip, etc... that's just me.
I don't find my current set-up (D700, grip and 28-70) to be hard to carry around or heavy. Others think it is. To each his own.
Personally, I just feel like most of the mirror-less cameras look like a large point and shoot with a lens attached.
A mirror-less DLSR? I could live with that.
There is no such thing as a mirrorless DSLR.
DSLR = "digital single lens reflex" camera. The reflex refers to the fact that there is a mirror in it.
DSLR does NOT = "large camera."
nor does mirrorless = "small camera."
You could theoretically make a DSLR that is like an inch in size, or a mirrorless camera that is the size of a warehouse (in fact, the largest photograph ever taken in history
was with a mirrorless camera the size of a warehouse). Size and weight have nothing to do with the distinction by definition.
Mirrorless cameras TEND to be smaller, because since they don't have a mirror or a pentaprism, there is no need to take up as much space. But if some customers like you wanted the size just for something to hold onto, I'm guessing at least one company would continue to make mirrorless cameras that were just large even though they didn't need to be, for the occasional person like yourself. But they would still be mirrorless probably, because it is optically superior.