Michelle broke up with me tonight. I dont know how I feel 100%. I am sad and cried once. Most of my thought is about losing the chance to be a father to these two boys and be around as much as I have been. I took it for granted but lately I have stopped. I love both kids and despite not sharing the blood relationship....they are my boys. Whether me and Michelle are together or not. The thought of losing that scares me. Losing Michelle hurts though. It really does. Anyway, enough of this crap. I probably shouldnt have posted this. I just dont feel so good, my thoughts are racing, and everybody here is going to bed. I just want to meet somebody but it doesnt look good. Michelle is the first girl to actually care about me and want me for me. Im scared that nobody else every will.