I'll spill the beans.

One of the ways I like to describe my photography is to say that I want to photograph the way Neil Gaiman writes. That doesn't quite work if you aren't familiar with him, but his stories often have the element of the supernatural or unreal just under the surface of the everyday. Most people go about their business unaware, but the special few... Tim Powers is another good example of an author who uses this, but he's probably even less known.
It's a bit ironic but my "message" is that different people see the world differently. However, I'm not content to let them see my work just any old how. I want to try to create this awareness by giving them one specific view: the one I create! Odds are, it's going to be different than what they are used to, so while it might make them a touch uncomfortable, they will be seeing things differently than if they had been there. Part of the problem comes from the fact that they weren't there, so there's no direct comparison. I have to hope that the image can do it on it's own.
In the case of the two girls, there are two very different intents. The first one is meant to be just nice to look at... cute. There are many of the elements I use there (my "style"): b&w, short DOF, higher contrast, larger areas of dark and light... These are all things I've learned help me in my goal. I was unaware of that during this shoot; it was mostly subconscious. I just picked what I thought I liked looking at. It wasn't until later when I took a class called "Finding Your Style" that I became aware of this simple yet often elusive idea.
While processing this shoot, some of that came to the surface for me. It was after taking the images, so there was only so much I could do. The first image would pretty much have to stand as is. At the time, I was only consciously thinking of getting something "nice". The second I could do more with. My subconscious was more successful with the capture. While I was hitting the shutter, a different feeling bubbled up and I knew I was getting something I
really wanted. While working on it, I could do more with the contrast, dodging, burning, etc. It's one of my favorite images now because I feel out of everything I've done, it most successfully represents what I want to expand and concentrate on in the future.
What I see, and what I hope others do, even if it's just subconsciously, is an etherealness or otherworldly feel. And hopefully a bit of spookiness. A cute young girl, the glow in her hair, the white dress, her playing... that's all happiness. But the dark bushes/trees, the blurred background, grey sky, her expression, the disjoint of her dress in this setting... that has the effect of adding something a touch off-kilter. Nothing too terribly sinister, but something along the nature of Puck or pixies. Pranksters that aren't out to hurt you, but aren't exactly safe either. I'm not going for something that literal, but of that feeling.
One of the reason that I think I found myself shooting children so often is that they spend so much of their time in their own little worlds. That lends itself well to what I'm doing. This probably wasn't at all what was in her world at that moment, but it makes it very easy for me to place her their. I used to spend my time thinking of a world of dangerous magic and sneaking creatures. This is my attempt at putting that into imagery.
My big frustration right now is that in order for me to be more successful in making the kind of images I want to make, I have to be much more directed in my shooting. I've always just been the observer, trying to put myself in the right position, making the right choices, and hitting the shutter at the right time. To get what I really want, I'm going to have to start taking a more direct approach when dealing with the subject, which isn't something I'm very comfortable with yet. It's one of the reasons I'm shooting more with adults now, in sessions with more intent in them. It's been a step backwards as far as what ends up on paper, but something I have to get comfortable with before I can more forward.
Anyway, lots of babble. Hope that made some sense.
And thanks for the compliment.
