Firstly, I'd like to underline that I am complete noob when it comes to film. I am not, by any means, trying to tell you how to load film.
Like to go against the grain? I suppose you could say so. Is that the reason why I choose the way I do? Nope. Read this, and I hope to explain my choices a little better:
The main reason why I decided to buy an analog rangefinder was that I could be able to get the negatives developed into physical images, which I then could put in albums. Yes, I could print digital files myself, or get them printed, but the process is so much less personal than analog I feel. I like the feeling of shooting film. I did when I was young(er). Then I shot disposable cameras I got from my parents. You know, I got one disposable camera with, say, 24 exposures that I was to use through out our one-week long vacation. I remember being selective about the pictures I took. I miss that, making the shots count.
Another thing I considered was that the whole process will become much more personal. When I press the shutter, I'm initiating chemical reactions on the film. The process is something that I can appreciate, because I study chemistry. I'm taking a course this semester called "inorganic chemistry", which I know will help me in understanding the processes. By current background already makes me better suited to understand the process than most people. As a chemist-to-be, I appreciate the process in ways I don't appreciate digital.
The above section brings me to why I want to develop my own film: doing chemical reactions and creating images myself. When I want to learn something, I want to do it properly. I don't have very serious hobbies, but those that I do have I want to master - or strive to perfect.
Making the whole image taking process more personal is also something I welcome. That is why researched buying film in bulk and load myself. I don't want a loader to do it for me when I, in time, will learn to do this myself. I'm fully capable to do many things machines do for me. The machines may be better at first, but when I gain experience in this I will outperform any loader. The same would apply to anyone of you. I take pride in "doing my hobbies myself". Others might not, but I do.'
That is why I want to load film myself. Not because I know most people don't. Not because I think I'm awesome and believe I'm better than oldtimers on here. It's just because I like to learn by experience. I like to know that "this is something I've done so many times that I know I will do it well enough". I can go to a river with a rod, some worms and a short piece of line and catch lots of fish to eat. That is because I rely on my experience in where the trout stands, how to handle the rod and how to not scare the fish. Sure, there's a learning process, but that is something I'm looking forward to. I might ruin a couple of rolls, and it might be annoying there and then, but I will learn from it, and, in time, I will look back and smile at the whole thing.
I hope that shed some light on my intentions to those who questioned them.