Chloé, outdoor shoot.

[FITBMX]

I understand the whole "last minute" thing (I don't do it well which is why there are certain essentials which NEVER leave my truck...)

So what kind of truck do you have, and where do you normally park?

 

[FITBMX]

I'm in a weird place now.
I do not want to pursue with escorts photos since they have no respect for my work (selling, cropping, editing my images, deleting my logo) I want to focus on portrait and civilians, I need to work on my port.

That is where a lawyer and copyright laws come in. At least try to get your licensing fees.

I think i'm not bad, but i'm not great yet, and probably will never be great enough in my mind. I'm also pretty harsh with the work of others, it's not only about me.
But I have a hard time finding model to build up a non boudoir portfolio.
Every girls approaching me wants boudoir... And when I told them that I only do Pay photoshoot for boudoir but I would gladly work TF for fashion or portrait, they have all of these ridiculous demands, like MUA, Hairstylist, wardrobe stylist. They are no model, most of them have shitty portfolio with 'fauxtographer' but they are so use to get what they want from everyone that they act like divas.
And I do not have a budget to hire professionnal models either. I'm stuck.

I agree it's more about Marketing skills these days, i'm thinking about sign in up for some courses.

I can't fail, photo is my only option,
I won't prostitute myself anymore.

Always do what you want, and not what others want of you.
You are a great photographer, with a lot of skill and know how. You just have to make it through this transition, which will not take you long.
As for models, Dan (and others I know of) used to ask random people they was on the street to model if they matched what where looking for.
Best of luck, and keep us updated.