When I was but a boy of 25, my young wife had bought herself a Sony a230. In my youthful ignorance and ineptitude, I just dutifully lined up that green bar with that little white line. I did OK for a while. Then it happened. I wanted to try things. I wanted to do something. I tried.... MANUAL MODE. I tried it once, just to see how it felt. It wasn't easy, and it took some effort, but it was quite a high. I didn't come back to it right away, but after a few weeks of sweats and convulsions, I had to have more MANUAL MODE. I started using it every chance I could, not even knowing about DOF or EV yet. Then, when I started learning about proper exposure, it took over my life. It was all I could think about. If I was without it for an hour, I would get headaches. A day, sweats and vomiting. I kept making up excuses just to shoot in MANUAL MODE. Then came the intervention. They showed me something. They showed me... Aperture Priority. It was as if a light shone from the heavens upon my DSLR, filling the lens and touching the sensor in... a new way.
Rehab was hard. I've relapsed a few times. I find myself still thinking about it here and there, and even did it just the other day to remind myself of how it feels. But it's not the same now. I have my family and friends to thank for showing me the light. I'm not out of the woods yet, but with continued treatment and therapy, I think I'll be OK after all.