Graig, I am so terribly sorry for your loss, darlin.
Whatever you are feeling, you feel it.
Feeling anger after any death is VERY normal, let alone a suicide.
I know that nothing I can say will make you feel better, but I offer you this...
When my dad passed away, I had so many emotions going on I didnt know what to do with them and at times I felt what I was feeling was wrong.
But NOBODY can tell you what you should or shouldn't feel.
If you want to scream at him for doing this, then go stand on a hill and scream at him. Write him a letter and tell him he's an idiot.. Do whatever it takes you to get whatever you're feeling out.
When I lost Dad, I cried for a long time, I became withdrawn and depressed. My sister didnt speak about it and acted like nothing had changed and my brother punched a hole in ourt bathroom wall. Everyone reacts in their way. Just do what you need to do and dont feel guilty for feeling anything that you do.
I wish you all the love in the world sweetie and I hope you surround yourself with friends and loved ones right now. Lean on them, thats what they are there for,
You ever feel like ranting to someone removed from the situation, dont hesitate to email me, PM or send me a message on msn. Even if u just want someone to listen.
*Huge hugs Graig*
Guys, there is a time and place for jokes.