Thank you ALL for your comments, thoughts and prayers! I think what really just punched me in the gut last night was the news about my friend losing her unborn child so unexpectedly, after I'd already had an emotionally trying night. And, I'm a writer--that's not just by profession, it describes me. Writing often helps me channel me thoughts and emotions and regain perspective. That's why I vented last night; somehow, putting it "out there" is often therapeutic for me.
It IS sad to see a parent begin that decline--I've been there with my father and now, with Mom at 86, that time is inevitable. Granted, HER mother lived to 98 (with pretty much full mental acuity until the last six months), but still--the things we're dealing with there are not entirely unexpected, just emotionally trying.
But to lose a child and so completely unexpectedly--I just can't even fathom that loss. She just had about two months to go, and the pregnancy had been pretty easy and completely uneventful, so *nobody* was expecting this. Knowing the shower was supposed to be this Sunday is going to make for a very odd "atmosphere" at church tomorrow. But they have a strong faith and will pull through this--it just sucker punched ALL of us last night.
Today is a day to see what I can do for the family to help them through this. And then focus on something else--like getting ready for the beach!!